Polgarae

I am hanging on the edge by my nails I'm hanging by my nails, and I'm a nail biter Each day I find myself on the edge be it by my wits, my heart or on my last button It feels at times, the world is against me even as I am as well How much can a mere mortal take, how much more does it take to break How much negativity can be absorbed until it starts radiate Just what keeps me going? What keeps me treading and not simply sink into the deep? HOLD ON, KEEP MOVING, KEEP ON SMILING, HANG TOUGH... BELIEVE, HAVE FAITH, POWER OF PRAYER are the signs that keep flooding my mind when I think I am at my absolute end I see a mountain that I know has anot

Promises and Truth I took from someone their word that this is this and that is that Colors firm, white is white and black is black I believed and wholeheartedly listened to the words from their mouth How crushed I felt when years gone by and then I was confused as to what was the truth I thought long and hard about promises made and promises kept I believed past truth from them and when they showed their true colors, I wept I anguished why it was, why the change, what was then or now was the truth The things told to me, were they real to my now aged self or long past youth I reach out to one whose promises are firmly anchored in my soul I

When I cried,   you gave me comfort When I felt fear,   you embraced me in your arms When I felt rage,   you soothed my soul When I was confused,   you found me answers When I was soiled,   you washed me and made me whole When I needed rest,   you had the patience to wait for me to continue When I had doubts,   you encouraged When I need someone to talk to,   you listened When I was ill or how I got there,  you judged me not When I called once or many times,   you came smiling each time When I came to you as a stranger,  you helped me leave as a friend. dedicated to those who aided me all the medical and service staff  and speci

Hear my words, my simple humble words Listen to the clear song of my heart From deep within my soul comes the words All I want from you is love Mountains crumble, trees fall The storms soothe themselves into gentle rain The Sun rises, the sun sets quietly into moonlit skies Throughout the chaos, it changes not that all I need is to be loved There is nothing in this world that couldn't be replaced There is nothing in this world that I cannot do without There is nothing in this world that needs to be fought over The only thing I desire above all is unconditional love The love of my parents, the love of siblings The love of my life and the lo

I am plain, odd, drab and shy I see you stare at me and wonder why Wondering how I came to be I may not be like you. but someday I'll be free "Have patience," I hear so quiet in my ear I am judged to be ugly inside by what they see from without Harsh words cause me to believe and in myself have certain doubt Darkness invades my world, oh how I feel the heaviness of life I wrap protection tightly around myself to deflect strife "Have faith" I hear once again I close my eyes and look into my soul for that special spark Deeper, deeper still into that quiet dark I open myself and release the things holding me down I strain to be free, to no l

When I die Let my ashes be in an open urn above it plant a tree, so straight and tall Let its roots take in my dust and nourish new life As it grows, let me flow throughout both limb and twig I would extend, stretch, branch out and spread My new journey from an old shell of life to a new home for birds, butterflies and bees The moss will show the direction upon the bark Let adventures be found among the branches May comfort be found below in the shade of the canopy Food be found around that is sought by the hungry Hear about the joy of life from the wind through the leaves Groans sound out by the mighty branches and trunk are not from pain

Don't give up on me, Lord, because many already have I have wandered along the path but not always wisely upon it I have allowed things to creep into my soul and replace things that you put in my soul and my heart Don't give up on me, Lord, as long as there is life there is hope Help me retrain my habits and put away things that distract me from glorifying your name and praising you before others If I am to lose memory, let it be things deemed unworthy by you Let me focus solely on you, Lord, so I no longer fear the unknown Be the beacon in the storm of my life and shine upon the rocky shore so that I may safely enter the safe harbor and re

Prodigal's Struggle Spinning around, spiraling toward my inner self Gently circling with arms flung wide, floating down to earth Eyes closed, feeling the gravity's gentle pull, urging me down How can I ignore and become deaf, when I have heard Heaven's joyous sound My once sorrowing heart, how it nows sings, trembling with delight Another chance for heaven, redemption, forgiveness, heart set free to flight My fellow beings welcome me back and lovingly give embrace They understand my doubts, failures, my slowing of the race Find in me, Oh Lord, once again, that little spark Find my lamp, my candle, and help me shine again, ever brighter in

Guide me home, Father I am blind, blinded by things I should not have seen and have lost my way Take my hand, Father I cannot feel, because my hands have not worked righteous tasks Whisper to my ear, Father I have gone deaf from hearing things that I should not have listened to Open my heart, Father I have closed it to thy word, resisting the truth given freely to me Heal my soul, Father My actions, my word, my deeds have injured me more than by another Sing to me, Father Uplifting and fill me with songs of joy and hope once again Speak to me, Father Let not silence settle and apathy give me comfort without thy word I reach out to thee

I will sing when the sun rises and shines upon my face I will sing until the final ray is but a trace I will sing when the joy of life is too much to contain I will sing when the deepest pain causes me to cry out from within I will sing when I think of the many forms of love I will sing about my love, my world, my life, my Father up above I will sing about the peace and quiet of the night I will sing about my rage, my insecurities, and my fright I will sing for whatever reason that comes before me I will sing someday about the glory of God for all eternity